I am experiencing many people say “no” and intentionally choose a slower pace of life these days. I am so not on the same wavelength with this cultural shift. It feels like I am in this season of my life (it has been about the past year and a bit) where I feel like not much career and advancement wise in my life has been happening.
This has been challenging.
I want to hustle.
I so desperately want to work more.
I want to work hard.
My parents taught me a work ethic.
I will do things I need to do to get more work.
I am doing things actively.
My soul is chomping at the bit for more. I want to be engaged in meaningful work. I am bored. My soul is deeply restless. I received a “no” answer yesterday, and that was hard for me. It is hard to mentally process your emotions when you do not get an answer you hoped for.
I am still trusting God with struggle yet persistence. I have this saying I like to affectionately call “shaky faith.”
Regardless of how I feel I want God to mould my heart and change me from the inside out.
I want to cultivate a heart of thankfulness and gratitude regardless of mine and Nick’s specific situation.
I am thankful for our warm home.
I am thankful we have a fridge full of healthy food that nourishes our physical bodies.
I am thankful for our church family who tends to our spiritual health.
I am thankful for my friends who are the most amazing people in the world.
I am thankful for renewed friendships.
I am thankful for the community we have in our lives.
What are you struggling with these days? What is your soul longing for? How are you pursuing your calling or learning to wait while you search for meaning?