Something amazing has happened to me in a relatively short period of time. I might finally be understanding the purpose of waiting… maybe.
So, I have been sick for too long. This pesky cold virus is sticking around… it can go stick it where the sun doesn’t shine! Haha! I miss going to the gym! I miss being active.
Perhaps God uses times of rest to deeply show us things our soul needs to get in our brains. God has graciously been revealing so much to me! It is amazing and draws me to worship Him again and again.
God has been teaching me about how He alone shapes my character.
God has taught me that healing alone comes from him.
God has taught me perspective.
He looks at things differently than our brains do.
He just wants our worship.
He doesn’t look at our circumstances like we do. He looks and knows how providential He alone has been. Nick and I might not have careers that look like we want them too, but God is still faithful to provide around every turn we need.
God has provided a nice, warm apartment for us.
We are surrounded by amazing, supportive families on both sides.
We are provided for.
We have amazing friends that have helped us with this life journey.
We have an incredible church family that has guided us through hard challenges.
God has gifted me with peace in my chaotic soul.
God has worked through my period of anxiety and depression to reveal His steadfastness and mercy over my and Nick’s life.
So where do I go from here?
How do I take this clarity and run with it?
How do I take this peace and rest and stay in this good place?
How do I live life with hands wide open and not fall back into discouragement and despair?
How do I run wild and free on this race marked out for me? How do I surrender my unseen goals and dreams into God’s faithful, providential hands when my inclination is to strive, push, and prove?
What do you do when you want to hustle, strive, push, and prove?
How do you lay it down to the Big Guy up there when you want to worry and have all your duckies in a neat, pretty little row?
I would love to know in the comment section below.