“I’m just going to be honest because that’s what I do”. This is a quote from Jennie Allen, the Founder of IF Gathering, a Christian ministry. I will never forget her saying this in this YouTube video. I just love it so much!
I wanted to write on hope in the midst of trials because I am in a trying season right now. I am experiencing depression and anxiety. These are not fun topics to write about because they are both still attached with way too much stigma. I wrote on my old blog about my experience with having a husband who suffers with chronic depression and anxiety. I prayed for God to help me understand what Nick (my main squeeze) goes through regularly. Funny how God seems to answer prayers.
I wanted to write about this now, versus when this trial might be over so that I can be a cheerleader for others experiencing a time of trial right now. There is hope. We live in a big, dark, scary world – but God is higher than that. He is reaching down with His loving Hand right now to help and hold you.
It has been a long, heavy season of rejection and I have experienced loss. I want to be a hope-releaser and encourager of people in this time.
Depression feels like a big, black, vacuum pit of hell. Depression is a physical thing. Like it is often noted, why do we intellectually view depression as less of a concern than cancer when our brains are the central, vital parts of our physical bodies? Depression fills your mind with lies. Depression tells you that you cannot do things, so why even bother trying? Depression puts a physical barrier between you and everything you try to accomplish. Depression fills you with a mental fog that sometimes makes thinking about menial items challenging. Depression makes you exhausted.
But sisters and brothers, please accept my offer of hope. Our God is for us, so who can be against us? There is hope and healing. You can do it, keep going. You are worth it.
Take baby steps. Literally one foot in front of the other. I often think of this as I take walks in our beautiful neighbourhood. One foot in front of the other. That is good for now. Moment by moment. Step by step.